If I only knew then what I know now, integrity takes courage in a world that hides behind excuses and often selfish reasons to be right versus endure uncertainty or simply apologize. I became a mother November 27, 2004 and my world changed. It was moment in time when there was no certainty and no excuse for anything less than doing what was right. I realized the importance of my choices manifesting consequences for another, and I took it seriously.
The new road ahead was not clear and blind faith was driving my decisions. My truth came from intuitively embracing vulnerability. I chose to focus on possibilities over fear and found the stronger my faith, the more obstacles versus peaceful moments arose. This often bothered me. If I am doing all I can do to live with integrity, why isn’t life getting easier?
At the height of this doubt and reflection, I became aware of the need to trust the process. The more I can handle, the more God will give me. There is an unexpected amount of unexplainable support for “doing the right thing”, as I like to say, “because it’s the right thing to do.” If only everyone lived by this rule, this world would be a brighter place.
The risks involved with being an entrepreneur and building a home bring out a hyper awareness for the need to surround myself with people who have integrity. To tell the truth, I have been too quick to trust yet I find myself incredibly grateful for the lessons I have learn wanting to believe in others and in myself. I see the invaluable growth that comes from risk. I was once told, there is nothing wrong with believing in others and everything wrong with this gift not being returned. However, I find the peace that comes with hope and forgiveness far outweigh the temporary let downs.
I am incredibly grateful today for each day that led to this point. As I celebrate my daughter’s twentieth, move into my dream home and prepare a meal for my family this Thursday, I also pray to share the joy I am finding and peace that comes with a life lived aware of the importance of Integrity. Happy 20th Astibug, I am so proud of you and Hamilton and the journeys we will travel in Truth and Trust.
